In search of Balance

Epilogue of my book: BALANCE

I have spent a whole life trying to change the people around me. This was due to the understanding that, if they acted the way I wanted, they would be happy. A lifetime of tearing myself apart for what I thought was "love" towards others, judging them because I would have acted differently in their place. A lifetime of being unable to understand and respect other people’s processes, their learnings and their lessons on my own path. I remained several years immersed in misconceptions so deeply rooted in my bones that I had to completely transform my whole being to survive. The only way I had to modify them, once I managed to recognise them, was to die.

I deconstructed myself down to the very dust until I was reborn; I built myself back anew.

Then I had the courage to understand that everything I had experienced was done by me towards myself. Absolutely everything. Even when the actions of others were the most heinous. Even when it was extremely hard to understand, to accept that the impact of the harrowing consequences that resulted from their actions was caused by myself and not by them to me.

When I took responsibility as an adult, when I was able to forgive myself for countless damages and pains. When I accepted that everything is simply perfect the way it is. When I could integrate the lessons to continue in this teaching-world until my soul decided that it had already fulfilled its mission. When I managed to identify myself in every person and situation I experienced. When I comprehended that it had always been me reflected in everyone and everything. When I learned that my judgement towards others was actually towards myself, that my hatred towards others was truly for me, that the disappointments, the betrayals, the abandonments, the love or the respect that others gave me was always me doing it to myself... That’s when the magic happened.

I realised that we are perfect mirrors in an infinite exchange of constant vibrations that will be positive or negative according to our decisions. I understood that I am me and I am him, I am also her and them, and vice versa; because we are a network that comes from the same centre, we are all and we are one, there is no good or evil, there is no light or darkness, there is no pain or happiness, but energy vibrating at different intensities. We are built on subjective perceptions based on the information we bring from before we incarnate, shaped according to the environment in which we are raised, in the people who embrace us and in those who hurt us. We build our character on the basis of the voices that speak to us and the eyes that look at us. We elaborate its structure depending on the words that each one of us absorbs. These perceptions from our point of view create our reality in order to learn and, after having acquired the necessary knowledge, to be born again in the same life, over and over, time after time.

Healing is not an easy or bright path; actually, it is rather dark and frightening, as much as your torments are. It takes a lot of strength and determination not to abandon the process, not to abandon YOU. But I faithfully swear and assure you that once you undertake the path, it is perfectly easy to achieve its objective, because the only thing that is needed is the most powerful force of existence, that force that is innate within us, the essence of everything: love. We have to love ourselves the way we deserve to be loved. And so, in that way, and only in that way, we can love everything else afterwards.

It is love and its teaching of balance. In these concepts lies the secret and its magic that gives us the supreme miracle of existence: the opportunity to live the promised heaven on earth.

Original text: En busca del Equilibrio

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